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My Reaction To Blood

Posted in about purple, spooks with tags , , , , , , , on February 1, 2010 by Purple

2/1/2010

Sometimes I can handle seeing blood, but sometimes I can’t. In real life, I can probably take it, if it’s not too much, but the description of blood or seeing it in a movie makes me feel uneasy. Like during English class, we were reading a passage that described a husband as the wife’s “red velvet cake”, and how she murdered him was how she “cut her velvet cake”. It was disgusting. My legs went all numb during that reading. I couldn’t stand it. Then while I was watching Jennifer’s Body, when the band was “sacrificing” Jennifer, I couldn’t take it. My legs got all numb and I just managed to walk into my room. Seriously, I banged into the wall on the way there. Even watching Saw, the movie where that guy got his gut cut up, even while he was still alive. My stomach got uneasy during that part. I can’t take that kind of thing, watching or reading the gruesome details of that. It’s sickening. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Maybe all this has to do with my fear of knives. I describe the situation here: https://soulthecolorpurple.wordpress.com/2010/02/01/seeingknifescream/#respond
I don’t know what’s wrong with me, I just get uneasy during those situations. What do you think about all this? Post your comments here.

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Posted in about purple, funnies, spooks with tags , , , , , , , , on February 1, 2010 by Purple

2/1/2010

Last night, my older sister was playing with me in the kitchen. She took out a huge knife, and I literally screamed, and I could feel the organs in my throat vibrate. It was like, in soprano mode or something. You know what the funny part was? I remember every single thing I did before that moment, but when I saw that knife, I don’t even know what I did. Did I just close my eyes and scream, or look at the knife and scream? I got no clue. haha Well anyways, my dad was in the kitchen too, and he looked at me in disbelief. My neighborhood is super quiet, and my voice could probably be heard everywhere. I can’t help it though, I just can’t stand looking at knives. It freaks me out. Whenever I see one, I just scream hysterically. It’s weird, yet funny at the same time. Even when my sister grabbed a butter knife from a cake box in front of me. I gave out a scream and scurried back. Also when I watched Jennifer’s body, when she got “sacrified”, my legs got numb. I saw the knife they were going to use, and I just couldn’t take it. I can just imagine what I would be like if a burglar came into my house and brought out a knife. I’d frickin scream, and that would be the last noise I would make. haha I can’t help it though. I’m not like, irrationally afraid of knives, it’s just a reflex of mine to scream when I see one.

That’s my story. I can’t quite tell if I actually have a knife phobia or paranoia towards knives. I don’t think it’s either, and here’s why:

Phobia: 

an exaggerated usually inexplicable and illogical fear of a particular object, class of objects, or situationan

Paranoia:

a thought process heavily influenced by anxiety or fear, often to the point of irrationality and delusion

Which do you think I have? Is it neither, the way I think of it? What’s a good word for it then? The symptom I have, the natural reflex I have towards seeing a knife? Comment your answer here.